I'm back, baby

Back from Langkawi, burned like a peanut with desire.

~17th of July 2009 : 11.30pm~

Dear Diary,

Guess who's back on a monkey stick, monkey stick, monkey stick.
Yeah I just flew in Langkawi and I feel like a million fucking bucks. I had time to think and reflect on myself, have fun for 4 whole days and made a decision to get my life back on track.

What I hope to achieve, what I live for, what my goal is. These are important but above all, I must always have mind over body, brain over arms, heart over feet. If I let my body take control of me, I'll end up like some emo shithead with no hopes and dreams.

If I am dead serious on what I want to do and put all my mental and physical strengths to build it, there will surely be progress.

My confidence is up, I'm 800% positive, I can smile again and I really feel the need to improve.. I feel like I can finally look in the mirror and look into my own eyes again. Let's roll.

Planning to - dance study and get hit on, yeah.

P.S. Still thinking of MJ.


Michael Jackson's memorial : Fit for the King

Michael Josophine Jackson,
Always in my heart.
(1958 - 2009)

~8th of July 2009 : 9.20pm~

Dear Diary,

Today morning I heard on the radio while driving to work, 'Michael Jackson's memorial on Star World channel 711 on Astro, be there at 6.30pm'.

I was like holy fuck, guest appearances by my other idol Stevie Wonder and one of my fav singers John Mayer. I knew I couldn't make it back in time so I had to leave early from work or something. But I had to settle a problem and I left work at 6, drove 70 miles per hour as fast as I could and arrived back home at 7pm. I almost crashed into a motorcycle but MJ's more important.. hah. So 30minutes late was alright, as long as I got to see the ending.

I watched the Michael Jackson's memorial a few minutes late. Tears almost came out as I listened and watched the beautiful song 'Heal the World' being performed, family members wearing sparkling white gloves and friends giving their sad speeches, and then the small little girl at the end of the show had to come out and grab the mic with her little hands and whack the tears outta my head.

In the end MJ's brothers and brothers, relatives, they all carried Michael Jackson's golden coffin out of the place, it was a sight to remember.

Michael Jackson, people I think of and lovers to have in the future
But you will always have a special place in my heart. And my legs.. my arms.. I'll think of you when I dance haha.