May the 6th 2009, Wednesday at 11.57am
Diary, I've been thinking less about my future and more about my love-life, it's a very bad direction to be heading to. The road to Love leads to marriage, which is the fastest shortcut to marriage and it's been hard for me to resist, because she is such a beautiful girl. I don't know what I like about her, other than her smile, I think about her all the time. I don't want to, it really throws me off my focus on a singing career but lord help me I'm falling hard for her and it's really annoying.
One fine day out of the blue I told her I liked her, and she told me to stop kidding around so I just went with that. Shows a large indication that I'm likely to get rejected. After all, it's adult life; she's busy with her studies, I'm busy with my classes. I still desire to launch internationally, but I'm saddened by the progress I'm making. My exam's coming in a month and I haven't picked up on my book. I have to perform at Leisure Mall sometime around June but something else is on my mind. I need to get back to my roots, haven't felt adrenaline for a while now.
I know this crush is stupid and hopeless, yet I am helplessly longing to be with her. I don't want the dream to end so quickly, it's a big waste of time if you ask me. I have to cut my heart out and forget her before it's too late.